It's been my fifth time at
SoCraTes Germany
this year. It felt like diving into a familiar place where I can experience a
proper timeout from everything for a few days, and soak up one variation of
how "good" can look like. By far not perfect or without potential for
improvement, but truly good. Being there the fifth time, with my communities from
various conferences and tech areas overlapping more and more, also meant that I
met a lot of wonderful people again that I just enjoy spending time
with, be it in deep conversations, sharing our passions, or spending our time
on the silliest fun activities. The great thing about SoCraTes is that the organizers intentionally craft the space, so I won't only meet people who I've grown
close to, but every year I'm getting to know lots of amazing people I haven't
met before. I truly enjoy making new connections. The sad thing is, that I
will never be able to do any of my connections justice in how I choose to
spend time with them. I'm grateful nonetheless for all of you.
Arrival Day
This year was truly exhausting so far. Which meant that I couldn't start into
SoCraTes well rested with my energy levels fully charged - they were rather in
the lower parts already. Not a great idea in hindsight, but hey, you have what
you have and you choose how to work with that. The travel day went well, I had plenty of time catching up with
Martin Schmidt during the train ride, and enjoyed meeting a few first people when
arriving at the venue.
The evening was calm, with great conversations at our dinner table about
organizing conferences,
the conference I co-organize, company culture and what it means for people wanting to go to
conferences. Yep, there was a pattern for sure! The evening went longer,
topics changed, I could catch up with a few people and then it was time to
rest in preparation for the next day.
Training Day
This year,
Juke Trabold was the facilitator for the conference. I was truly happy to see them
again in this role, as for me, Juke is one of the most skilled, considerate,
thoughtful and kind persons, facilitators and moderators I know of. They set
the space for all of us from the start in a manner that resonated throughout
the event.
During the opening, I met
Daniel Steinhauer
in person again, a former colleague, dear friend and conference co-organizer
fellow. It's been his first SoCraTes and I'm still super happy he trusted my
(and other folks') recommendation to experience it for himself.
The
training day
offered less sessions than the last years, and it was still hard for
people to make a choice. For me the decision was fortunately straightforward, so one thing less I needed to spend energy on.
Another change was that the first training was twice as long as the second
slot, an interesting experiment. It worked out for me this year.
For the first session, it was instantly clear to me that I would join
Gitte Klitgaard's training "Psychological Safety Awareness" as soon as I read she's going to give a session. I've had the honor to
witness her talks and workshops in the past and speak with her personally many
times. Every time I'm going to Gitte's workshops I'm gaining new insights
about the topic and myself. Even when doing a workshop I've been to already in
the past, like this one. It's worth it every single time. Invaluable. This
training was once again bringing different aspects to my attention. Gems like:
"If you are not failing, it's either not challenging enough or you're not safe
enough." or "You can't just follow a guideline to create a safe environment as
it's about the fear we have inside." Also on the facilitation of the session
itself, like "Ask people to pass explicitly so they used their voice on the
room, so it's easier to use it again." or "One reason I sit down here is not
to be the teacher, you're not reporting to me." I also made new realizations
about myself - which doesn't often happen in training settings. With Gitte,
they just show up. She's setting the space in a way that allows that to happen
for me. Anyways, I cannot share much deeper insights here as the training rule rightfully was
that nothing leaves the room. I can say, however, that I really appreciate my
fellow training participants for sharing so openly with each other, giving
each other the room to do so as well, and practicing listening to each other.
For the second training I chose
Diana Montalion's "From Feature Factory To Forge". I only witnessed Diana on stage before and was curious how her energy would show
up in a hands-on session. It did show a lot and I loved it! Perfect for this
late afternoon session. Also, I was pleasantly surprised to see
Sofia Katsaouni co-facilitating the session, adding another angle on the topic and
leading by example with her human skills. What both of them offered us was a
fun group exercise in multiple evolutionary steps. We had to design a movie
review themed system. Decide what are the core concepts for it. Have another
group provide us definitions for those concepts without interaction, so there
were plenty of surprises to deal with! We defined our core capabilities. We
had the system challenged by people from other groups. We could evolve it
further in short time. Our group even checked if the domain name we had in
mind was still available! A key phrase that stuck with me was "Agreement on
words is not the same as agreement on meaning." Oh my, we've all been through
that. Besides that, I really enjoyed Diana's references to improv theater (I
really like the "yes, and" to build on each others' ideas). A fun surprise was
the mention of "No Vehicles In The Park", a super fun exercise I had the
pleasure to have
Elizabeth Zagroba facilitate. Best thing: She was at the conference as well and obviously
now had to run this session there, too! I heard people loved it just as
much as I did a few years back. She's the best in doing these sessions - not
only these sessions, obviously, yet they are a true highlight. If you ever have the
opportunity, join and witness your brain be tied up in knots (in the best way
possible)!
After the training sessions, I met plenty of folks again and then settled for
a calm dinner with
Elizabeth Zagroba and
Joep Schuurkes to catch up a bit with each other. Then it was time for wold café
already, where we ran three rounds of finding a random table, sitting down
with a bunch of people, and connecting with each other over a few guided
questions. Always a nice start to the main part of the conference and I'm
usually getting to know new people this way! Just like this time as well. The
evening went on, I dove into a deep and long conversation to catch up with
Gitte, and suddenly it was again time to go to bed.
Open Space Day 1
Juke introduced everyone to the concept of an open space, then the first
marketplace of ideas opened. SoCraTes Germany is the largest open space
conference I know of, and this year they probably had a new record with way
over 200 people joining. It can really be daunting to pitch a raw idea in front
of such a big crowd, let alone wait for this pitch while standing in the very
long queue, trying to listen to the current presenter. I'm truly glad this
wasn't my first time speaking at conferences, and not my first time at
SoCraTes. I'm always in awe how many new people and also youngsters dare to do
so! That's one of the very special parts of this conference. It's scary, and at the same time many people feel safe to do it nonetheless.
As usual at open space conferences, I make myself a plan which sessions I want
to go to - and then things happen differently. Just like this time, when
during the first session slot I met
Susanne Neunes
in the hallway and we basically opened our own session, talking about the
Open Security Conference, organizing, ideas, and a lot more.
-
"Threat Modeling" by Martin Schmidt. I knew Martin had revised his talk and wanted to do either a dry run or have a
conversation about the topic. I was curious to hear the talk, learn how he
presents the topic to the audience, and what worked for them. It was great
to see people interested in this, the following conversation and
knowledge exchange was great as well. A core message: "Just start. Better do
something than do nothing." I can't agree more!
-
"All time favorite computer games" by me. At open space conferences, plenty
of people host sessions on all kinds of passions, hobbies and more. I had never proposed a session on a non-tech topic before, yet this
year I thought, why not? The year was so stressful and I should focus on
some pure fun topics anyways. So I pitched it as a lunch session and was
pleasantly surprised seeing lots of folks already at the table, eager to
share their most favorite games. And we did! You could literally see the people's eyes light up when talking about their highlights. Together, we
came up with a really nice list of amazing games to enjoy. This didn't only
give energy in the moment, it was a great idea in hindsight as it grew
beyond the event. We now have a SoCraTes games channel on Discord and even our own
private Steam group (many thanks to
Frank Sons
for making all of this happen!). Super cool to see what comes out of a
simple idea.
-
"Supply chain security" by
Bertram Vogel. I really appreciate people bringing security topics and raising awareness
on certain risks. In this case, Bertram shared the specific supply chain
risks for Node and npm. There's been plenty of examples in the last years
for sure. He advocated for good options to offer further layers of defense to
protect ourselves, while acknowledging that we always need more. I left the
session a tad early to prepare for my own upcoming session, yet overall I
felt he reached people to look into this topic further which is great for
all of us.
- "Capture the Flag Together (Beginners' Edition)" by me. Well, I know, it's
not the first session I do to introduce people to security testing and
witnessing how people can find and exploit vulnerabilities to see or do what
they are not supposed to. And yet, these sessions are usually good fun. Seems there's
also always people coming! This time again, I had a huge room, difficult to
moderate yet it seems it went okay enough. Sadly, I already noticed during the session I was lacking energy to help steer this group in a better way. At least some folks did come back
for more in the evenings.
-
"OpSec" by Eric. This session sounded really interesting as it was focused on
personal security which I really wanted to learn more about. But then I had
to realize that my energy levels were super low, my brain too tired to focus
on the session. So I had to leave early and found myself in the coffee corner just
chatting a bit before the evening closing of the first set of sessions. Good
time to write some kudos cards as well! Before I experienced this way of appreciating and recognizing someone else, I never
understood the concept of physical kudos cards. Now I'm their biggest fan.
There's just something special about receiving a written thank you, and even
better: giving it to someone else and seeing their face light up.
Dinner time! This evening, I tried to catch up with as many dear community
friends as possible, and it worked. Like with
Thierry de Pauw and their two kids, and Marc Kalmes. I had a fabulous time at table 19 and I had the impression it worked out for the
others just as well.
Well. And then I continued my self-imposed, now well-established tradition to host an evening session: "Capture
the Flag Together (Adventurer's Edition)". This time, I even had it start late
to make more time to talk with people beforehand. And still, once again, so
many people showed up, curious to explore and learn together. It was a really
nice session, while it was also a very frustrating session as we didn't get
the flag yet. When we realized it was late in the night already we agreed to tackle this
again the next evening with a fresh perspective.
Open Space Day 2
While the day before I had already realized I'm lacking energy, this day I
couldn't deny it anymore. Usually, I manage to get myself out of bed for the
second marketplace, even if just barely. This time I just couldn't. Good thing
is I wanted to be easy on myself anyway and not propose a session during the
day but rather join more from others. And then it happened again, the first
time slot I ended up in an impromptu hallway track session. I just talked with
folks and enjoying my time while allowing myself to start the day slower.
-
"Security card game" by
Philipp Zug, Martin Schmidt and me. Oh right, didn't I say no session for me today? Well, no
session to pitch today, as Philipp was so kind to take this over for us. And
yet, of course I wanted to join our little group that bonded together a few
years ago at
SoCraTes 2023
and started building a security-themed game as a little relaxed side project. Every year
since we hosted a playtest session at SoCraTes, so obviously we were eager
to see how people interacted with the game in its current state. It didn't evolve as much as
we planned to since last year, and yet there were some significant
improvements. This time, it showed! For the very first time, people in the
room really played the game as is. They chose a scenario to play. They went
slowly, card by card, making thoughtful decisions together. They introduced
a group voting. They pondered back and forth about potential outcomes of
their decisions. It was such a joy to observe! Also, this group had
wonderful feedback once again that will help us in the coming year to
improve the game further. Definitely an energy-giving session.
- "Photography" by Camille de Pauw. I love art. Especially visual art.
Whenever I interact with art, it makes me connect with a part of myself that I
don't often have the capacity to connect to and it re-energizes me. This
session was just beautiful. Camille dared to showcase favorite pieces of a
photography project she worked on, with the theme of feminism, capturing women resting in themselves and showcasing strength in doing what they're doing. Camille prepared
the room in a way that when you entered the session, you instantly dove
into a different world. Not the conference session you'd expect! Suddenly you're confronted and engaging with her pieces, alongside many
others who do the same in their own way. Some people just looked intensely
at the photos. Others discussed their origin and making. Some found details
others missed. Some evaluated what they liked and what they would change. It
was just beautiful. I admire Camille's courage to do this. For me, my heart
and soul was full after this session and I really wouldn't have missed
it.
-
"How to delete stuff" by Elizabeth Zagroba. So many people joined to exchange their experiences on a very crucial
topic that is far from easy but all of us face sooner or later: the topic on how to get rid
of software. Features, services, you name it. Decommissioning and sunsetting
things is hard. Deleting even lines of codes can be hard for people (personally, I
usually really enjoy this). I loved how this session truly engaged people,
how they listened to each other sharing advice and hardships, how we all
took note on ideas that might help us delete more stuff that most definitely
should be deleted. A few gems I took with me were "Get people moving, just
moving alone helps", and the idea of ADRs as "Any decision record" to take
away the pressure, make it everyone's job, be clear it doesn't have to
be perfect and lower barrier. Ingenious.
-
"Cat Hicks' 'Psychology of software teams'" by
Simon Görtzen. I've been following Cat Hicks for a while on social media and was inspired by many takes from her
researcher point of view on software team dynamics. As soon as I heard she
wrote a book, I had to get it. Well, I truly lack capacity this year and I
have not read her book yet. Even better that Simon did and gave a session to
review the core points as well as comment them with what parts resonated with him. Really
insightful session that strengthened my resolution to read this book. A
core topic here was the message to recognize "culture and psychological
safety as core infrastructure of a learning organization". Hear, hear.
The open space was nearly over by now. We did a retrospective, gave further kudos
cards, thanked the hotel staff and childcare folks. With that, the open space
was officially closed by Juke. That didn't mean we couldn't propose evening
sessions and also longer workshop slots for the next day. And even promote
partner conferences, like, who would have guessed, the
Open Security Conference
that has its origin at
SoCraTes 2023
as well. Super cool to have four organizers represented at SoCraTes this year.
Dinner time, conversation time, play time. Finally I had a chance to catch up
a bit with
Janina Nemec and play our traditional round of SET together. Time flew by and - guess what? - another round of "Capture the
Flag Together (Eventually)" started. We continued on the same machine as the day
before and hurray, we found the flag! It was fun and we all learned a bunch
with this as well. The evening (shall I say night?) closed for me with yet
another tradition: long nighttime walks together with
Tobias Goeschel, talking about - well, everything. It's an honor, a pleasure, and not taken
for granted we can do this, at least once a year.
Workshop Day
Last day of the conference, reserved for longer hands-on interactive sessions.
I've joined a few of them in the last years, I've given my own workshops, or just gave myself more time to connect with folks. All of that has value. This time I tried again something new. Martin Schmidt and I had considered to propose a threat modeling workshop to
conferences next year, so what better opportunity to try ourselves at
SoCraTes to introduce people to the topic and give them first-hand experience?
It really helped we had talked about the topic multiple times this year
already. It also helped I had just been at his talk during the open space. For the workshop day, we had briefly aligned on what
we intended to do. Yet the final concept? Due to so many
things going on, we created it only half an hour before the workshop. Usually,
that would be my horror scenario. Yet as we know each other well, we managed
to quickly draft out the structure and exercises and we were indeed ready to
go, and calm on top. Super grateful for Martin's trust! Both of us were happy to see all the people who showed up, we had way more participants than
expected. We ran the workshop and we saw people were really engaged. They
didn't only have fun, they also had insightful discussions and feedback in the
end. I can't reveal too much here, yet it seems this workshop idea is truly taking shape for
next year. Lots of things went well, we have some tangible improvements, the
proof of concept provides value. What a cool insight to take with us.
As we had just spent a lot of energy it was great that the afternoon was calm and I had some time to catch up with things before we
headed for dinner. At dinner, how else could it be, people schemed plans
for the evening. Lightning talks, conference session summaries, board games. I
shared I'd offer another round of Capture the Flag Together as that's my kind of fun - and people
instantly signed up for it. So this happened once again! Truth be told, I shouldn't have done it the way I did, as my energy levels were way too low and I
didn't manage to facilitate and moderate the room in a way I should have when
hosting a session. Lesson learned for the next time.
In the late evening, there were surprisingly few people left. We grouped
together and had a really relaxed end of the day. One of my highlights
were to playtest a puzzle game - details not to be revealed yet, I'll leave that to
the authors! It was super fun, it had everything I need from such a game. A
nice way to discover the rules. Just the right level of difficulty, not too
easy and difficult enough it's doable but an achievement to solve the puzzle.
And a perfectly weird theme you can be playful with. Special shoutout to
Claudia Bischoff for fully diving into this together with me!
Departure Day
This late night session would have been the perfect ending. But of course it
wasn't, there was still the journey home and that starts with whoever has to
leave the venue at the same time. For me it was a perfect opportunity to catch
up with
Jana Fuerchtenicht on the first leg of the train ride. Thank you so much for keeping my
spirits up while my energy levels were crashing, I really appreciate it!
Martin Schmidt and I continued on and chatted for a while until I was on my own. I
arrived home and I realized I was completely exhausted. While some of the
sessions refilled my batteries, a lot of other happenings had drained me. I
had definitely overexerted myself, this time worse than ever as I had already
come to the event with a clear deficit. Another reminder that I need to manage
my energy levels way more actively than I did this time. Don't get me wrong: this conference is
absolutely worth being at and investing energy in. At this event, people care - not only for themselves, but
also for each other. Some situations will give a lot of energy, some will
drain a lot of energy (and be still invaluable). Sometimes we manage to find a
balance, sometimes we don't. This time, I just clearly didn't. A stark reminder for
myself and I'm glad I had it. Sometimes we need those reminders to change the
way we do things. During the coming year and also at SoCraTes 2027 - I hope to be back!